Twenty Precious Years

For God, who said, " Let light shine out of darkness," made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ. But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all- surpassing power is from God and not from us. ~ 2 Corinthians 4: 6-7 I am reminded today of how much we have in this life to be thankful for. Lately, I really been questioning my future and what turns within this journey should I really be taking. At times I feel like my journey has been a struggle...not so much outwardly as it has been internally. I decided to be candid today...not sugar coat my feelings...let my heart do the writing... I am truly at a place where the journey is so dark...I can't even really see the light. I know that I am taking steps within this time and space to move the pace of this journey...and often times it seems as if when I take one step forward I end up moving two steps back. I sometimes feel like I should be at a different place in this life...married, good career, completed my education fully...and this list could go on. I know that God is real and I know that He loves me. However, it doesn't change the heart of how I feel sometimes. God never said my journey in this world would be easy...He just asked me to follow. For the past twenty- seven years of my life, He has been forever loving me. Twenty of those precious years, I have been following my Savior. I may have made some mistakes along the way and stumbled down of few paths...but one thing is for sure He has been forever Faithful to me. I may not possess the things in this life that I truly desire right now in this moment...but I am working on it...trusting my Jesus every step of the way. I don't know what lurks around the next year or so of my life...let alone the next corner I turn...but I do know that I serve a God who knows my heart, sees my desires, and will guide me through every avenue that I encounter. The energy it takes to live out this journey faithfully...has truly wanted to collapse and give up at times...I am reminded that there is a greater hope in this life...that we are here...not for ourselves...and not to see our desires come to pass...but to see His desires encompass our lives and truly bring glory and honor to His name. This is ultimately my passion...if I have to sacrifice the deepest desires of my soul to bring glory, and honor to His name...I will do that....For I will continue to follow My King and trust Him completely. My prayer is that through the tests and trials that I face in this journey...no matter how hard it has been, nor how much harder the enduring may go....I pray that He would lift my spirit and allow His beauty to radiate through my soul. For He has called me by name...He did that not only twenty years ago...but continues to call me to follow...keeping my heart in time with His. So yes today...the desires of my heart are lacking...and the light in my world is quite dim. However, His joy continues to break through my sadness and give me life daily....just as He has done for the past twenty-seven years of my life. Thank you Jesus...for being my light in the dark and giving me hope for my future. To those reading....this blog has been inspired by the Spirit within my soul. I pray that if you have read this far...the Lord has touched your heart in the way that only He can. I pray that He whispers His thoughts of grace, hope, and love into your soul. I pray that He will guide you on whatever path you may be facing and most of all grant you the desires of your heart within His perfect timing. He is the alpha and omega...the beginning and end... He is the joy within my sky.

Waves

So I stand at the brink of shore...not sure as to how wide the ocean is, nor if I will ever reach the other side. I do know that there is more of the ocean to explore. I also feel that the shore is where we escape...it's where we feel safe...for when we venture to far the ocean overpowers our strength and often times leaves us in a drowned state. What we fail to realize, is that if we allow our strength to overpower the ocean...we can accomplish great things. We even sometimes reach to the other side and see a more meaningful light. I can't even fathom what the other side of my life looks like...I know that I have to keep swimming in this ocean...and not drown....but with each wave that crashes and pulls me down...I have to get back up...and keep believing that there is greater power that transforms each level of the ocean to help me reach the other shore. Sometimes, we swim back...to the shore...and stand...to see how far we have come...and how much farther we have to keep going. It's a big ocean...with lots of waves...but as they crash....they fade....to hit the shore...of where we started. There are waves that make the sun shine even brighter and allows the ocean to simply smile. Those are the waves of hope....they crash to show us...that life is worth living...they crash to shine favor upon us. It's quite amazing that when you start swimming the shore begins to slowly disappear. Ride out the waves...before ever going back....it allows time, space, and opportunity to be embraced.