Waves

So I stand at the brink of shore...not sure as to how wide the ocean is, nor if I will ever reach the other side. I do know that there is more of the ocean to explore. I also feel that the shore is where we escape...it's where we feel safe...for when we venture to far the ocean overpowers our strength and often times leaves us in a drowned state. What we fail to realize, is that if we allow our strength to overpower the ocean...we can accomplish great things. We even sometimes reach to the other side and see a more meaningful light. I can't even fathom what the other side of my life looks like...I know that I have to keep swimming in this ocean...and not drown....but with each wave that crashes and pulls me down...I have to get back up...and keep believing that there is greater power that transforms each level of the ocean to help me reach the other shore. Sometimes, we swim back...to the shore...and stand...to see how far we have come...and how much farther we have to keep going. It's a big ocean...with lots of waves...but as they crash....they fade....to hit the shore...of where we started. There are waves that make the sun shine even brighter and allows the ocean to simply smile. Those are the waves of hope....they crash to show us...that life is worth living...they crash to shine favor upon us. It's quite amazing that when you start swimming the shore begins to slowly disappear. Ride out the waves...before ever going back....it allows time, space, and opportunity to be embraced.

Carousel Ride

Life has many facets that take us on carousel's. We go round and round until we acknowledge the fact of who we are. That who we have become was a part of a past of who we were. Yes, we may have grown and taken strides of faith along the circles...but as the spinning of life grew faster we couldn't stop to face the one horse on the carousel that touched our hearts the most. It's the one that perhaps we didn't chose to ride that taught us how to love. The one that wanted to be the chosen, yet simply couldn't because the greater horse was on another carousel. Yet had the past not created hope and allowed our hearts to love....there could have never been....a horse to even choose. But the beauty of the carousel ride still magnifies the heart...and teaches the soul how to truly be inspired by who we are. Once we grasp who we are...and know that we have the power to love freely....then we have entered a new spinning...a new carousel of hope. There is a carousel of life that spins...It spins circles of hardship...but also spins circles of faith, hope, and love.

Center Stage

In the past seven years...life has been one big transition....from changing schools, to living on my own, to starting a new job that was apart of a career path, to embracing the unknown territory of coming back home. I am not sure which stage I perfer to stand on...but one thing is for sure...along this branched path....my character was tested. There were times I couldn't do anything but simply perservere. As the tribulations have broaden over the years they have allowed my proven character to shine. There have truly been many times I have wanted to give up on this life....but knew that my spirit would recieve an unspeakable joy in this life. Time progressed and life seemed to get harder testing my character to it's utter core. These test made me question all that I was in Christ...and made me stand firm in my hope of being faithful. I never knew what lurked around any corner of these trials...I just knew that I was being tested through the fire. As I was tested, satan knew where to attack and how to pull me down. He somehow knew that my faith would prevail and my heart would obey. As hard as that task was...the Lord allowed my spirit to refine. Once the refining process is completed...our souls are shaped, we are who we are...and we can genuinely embrace the joy in this life. To be the hope and truly be the light so that the Lord may receive the glory. So how do we know that we are truly refined individuals? When does one know that they have emerged from the fire with a new anticipated hope on the horizon? It's quite simple...it's when you can look back over the past and see a hand that guided you all the way to the current stage. Is your name on the billboard? Is it your time to embrace the joy that is before you? Is it a time to be the hope and light to those whom surround? If you find yourself asking these pertenent life questions, chances are you have been refined through the fire. God forms his gold through trials and tribulations. Through times unwavering hope, the road can seem lost...but the faith allows for perserverance to prove your character, for your proven character, has hope, and well hope doesn't dissappoint. There comes a time in the process of life...that hope and joy collide. They simply become one. Be the hope to those who bring joy to your soul. No matter where you are...just be the hope that lights the joy. Time will only tell where this current path will lead, but one thing is for sure...I have a proven character, as well as a hope and faith that allows my soul to embrace the joy of this life. So I take center stage...to await my moment where hope can be the joy that fills the room and know that I am clearly not the one standing on center stage...but I am just the hope and joy for someone else to stand and recieve the glory. Those who bring sunshine to the lives of others cannot keep it from themselves. -George Linnaeus Banks

Mystery Song

It's in the way my heart beats....when I see him near. It's in the way my soul sings....when I hear his voice. It's in the way his smile captures my eyes. It's in the way his laughter makes me giggle inside. It's the way my heart shines...when he speaks to me. It's the way my soul shivers...when I reply. It's in the way his joy illuminates through the sky. It's in the way his happiness makes the day shine. It's in the way the magical silence is comforting. It's in the way the mystery song is singing.

Acts of Love

To love and to be loved is to feel the sun from both sides. -David Viscott * thoughts are swarming still...more to come soon *

Memories of Hope

During the perplexing, wavering, uncertain moments of life, one finds the brightest spark of hope to hold on to. It's not that their life should shatter just cause someone else's world has collapsed....it's the spark of hope that lights the way. Knowing that the heart and soul has forever been changed by the mere fragment of someone else's precious time. It's not the loss that lives on...it's the memories...the ones that brought hope and light the way for a brighter day. It's the smiles and cries that emphasize the meaning of life. It's taunting really, the way life shatters...and yet how hope relinquishes the spirit of life into the soul. It's a time in life that will never be forgotten...nor will ever be replaced...it's the light of my hope and will forever guide my way. In this life...there will be loss of loved ones...there will be time for grieving, there will be time of precious new found hope, there will be time to laugh, there will be time to grow, but most of all there is always time to love. May this Christmas mark not only a time of hope, but a time of love....

Sparkle and Shine

Abba father, have your way...Though they know not what they do....May the cross draw men to you...to you...( Hillsong ) Every bit of my heart is bursting! Not only to hear the Father say "yes" but to know in my spirit that what I had experienced in recent years was a beautiful tapestry of life unveiling the mystery and magic of Jesus' love for me. He is all that I need in this life...I know that time paves the way and light captures my soul in the darkness...for the road was treacherous and barren. It allowed me to fear who God was and all that He could do for me. It brought me to a place of understanding the real meaning of the love of Christ. Blessings...there are so many...but I was reminded tonight...that when things are dark...He is still at work...paving a way and giving meaning to things that are incomprehensible. It's beautiful, how for a time life spins tragically to forever build a bridge across the barren land. To spring hope and happiness within the soul that allows the love in life to sparkle and shine!