Yellow Butterflies

The last couple of days...I have seen yellow butterflies everywhere. Most people who know me, know that I adore this special creature and in some way have taken the process of the caterpillar and it's transformation into a butterfly; and compared it to the process of life.

Lately, it seems as I have had lots of questions formed over my past regrets. Knowing the things in life that I can't change and accepting my faults within the process of life. To some my process in this life of finding my life partner...has not been highly looked upon. I am a person of really high standards and believe in my heart that love will find me. I don't believe I have to seek this love out...I really do believe that the essence of love will seek me out. Just as my Heavenly Father sought me for His own...so will my future husband.

I know that I don't understand every aspect of my life process...and in the last few years my life has been swarmed with doubt and uncertainty. Life has been something I have had to make myself live. Getting by on my own and learning from my own mishaps. I haven't had anyone to lean on other than the Lord. In my times of stress and sorrow it seemed as if the Lord would place butterflies in my path...that would make me smile.

I remember walking on campus my last semester of school . It was in the middle of February...it was rather chilly...and not at all the season for me to see a butterfly. As I walked to my class from my car I saw the butterfly flying to my left. I remember thinking...is that a butterfly? It spoke to me...not literally, but metaphorically. I knew this butterfly was to symbolize freedom and peace to me. Letting me know that in the worries and struggles of life...I am being transformed...into who God wants me to be. It doesn't matter...how big the trial or the test...it's the faith that gets you through. As that butterfly flew around me that day I stood there admiring it's wings knowing that the creature was freezing....but he fluttered around and landed on my arm. I stood there wondering if anyone was watching and looked around and saw no one but myself. It was a moment I knew that butterfly had found me....I teared up....because this creature had touched my spirit in some way, letting me know that all of life is a process and that hope is found in flying. Where you land...is the peace that comforts.

I don't know why I have seen so many yellow butterflies the last couple of days....but they have taken me back to that moment on that chill February day and made me smile once again. Life is a process with a transformation that shapes our spirits and guides us to the peace that we all desire. They symbolize hope amidst a dreary storm and teach us how to fly effortlessly through the tests in this life.

Embrace the yellow butterflies and the joy that these special creatures signify...one may just land on your arm and delight you with a peace.