30

3o... is just number right?! To most it is....but in eleven days it will be milestone for my life here on this earth....// There are moments in the past 30 years that I am not proud of and moments that have brought genuine love to my soul. There have been lessons learned, spiritual growth and wisdom embraced. In the last 30 years...when I look back over this life...it's been about fighting...striving to get ahead... and when people said I couldn't do something...proving to them that I could.

As 30 approaches...I look over the last 29 years with much gratitude in my heart for the people who have been within my life...encouraging me when things got tough....giving me spiritual wisdom...to expand and broaden my faith...to shape the foundation for my future.

I have thought in recent years...that I should be at some other point in my life...but it has taken me 30 years to realize...it's not about where we are...it's where we're going...that truly matters. It's about believing in yourself, when no one else does...and knowing that at the end of day...you are not alone...but simply being carried by the Master's hand. This is a journey...one that I hope will give me another 30 years to embrace....and hope for better tomorrows. It's almost liberating...to think of what you've learned...and how you can move forward...to a new beginning. So here's to the next 30 years...may hope shine with each new day....just like it has in the past...may joy radiate within...and extend love to those who enter my path. Maybe the fairytale of love will find my soul and the white horse will appear...and perhaps with each enchanting moment...my life will continue to shine...//

brighter than sunshine

Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine

...and it's brighter than sunshine...

~Aqualung

castles in the air

Do not worry if you built your castles in the air. They are where they should be. Now put the foundations under them.
~ Henry David Thoreau

Most of the time people think that life is built upon foundations of truth...and this isn't wrong....foundations are established at the beginning stages of life....however the lofty side of me believes that foundations aren't the answer to everything...and that building castles in the air... are in reality the dreams in which form our foundations.

Most of our castles are shaped from something that we believe in...not something that we have achieved by forming a foundation. A foundation has to be formed from something, whether that be a dream, a hope, or a desire...the belief in the heart that something great can be achieved. That's when we start to build the foundation...and typically foundations are discovered from the castle that isn't being suspended to the ground by a foundation. That foundation has to be formed to reach one to their castle.

It may take a lifetime to form a foundation to reach the perfect castle floating in the air...but it's where it should be...and it's what we do... how we believe and have faith that form the foundation for us to reach our castle.

half of the heart

Often times people can mask their real feelings and at other times reveal truths about themselves that they didn't expect to share. It happens to the best of us- and in those moments we don't realize how honest we are being with not only ourselves but to those who are listening-

Typically people live with half of their heart...not wanting to share the core of who they are due to fear and what one might think. People live with either their hearts half closed or their hearts half open. So which are you?? A heart half closed is someone who can't quite open up and express their true emotions without blaming others. A heart half open is someone who opens up...but has trouble determining the course of action to take, due to past experiences and not understanding the concept of opening the heart fully. When the heart is half closed there has been pain afflicted on that person...and the tapestry of their heart has yet to heal. When the heart is half open healing may have taken place but the soul of the heart can't grasp the truth of what they feel. When the heart is wide open...the tapestry has healed...the soul can grasp truth...and the heart can beat freely...//

Past experiences whether they be tragedy spun or happy endings...can result to how one's heart is actually presented to another. It is ultimately fear...that keeps a person from opening up their whole heart and moving forward in life. It also keeps people from ever truly embracing another soul- To each person their own pattern is formed and how they present their heart affects the dynamics of all whom they embrace.

the brave pooh

“Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. ”

Christopher Robin to Pooh

Sometimes we never see the brave spirit within ourselves. Sometimes we never think that we can accomplish much. Sometimes we think we are weaker than what we truly are. In life there are going to be times where moving forward is hard and taking chances aren't easy...and in this moment...one may find themselves questioning if they can even carry the load.

The beauty in this moment...is not knowing if one can carry the load...or even if one can be brave...but knowing the character of the person is striving forth...not understanding and honestly trusting and having faith that something greater within oneself can accomplish a grander plan.

And Pooh believed these things because he had a Christopher Robin in his life-- We all need a person to spur us on within our journey...and help us believe that we can accomplish great and magical things in this life...//

flutter or land

Thoughts flutter rapidly through the mind....and when life happens there are two options: to either flutter or to land....this may not make any sense...and that is ok....but I hope that the reflection in what is written will cause one to stop the flutter...and to land...//

Today began as a normal day...get up, get ready...grab the coffee to go....to spill it while walking out the door...to walk to the car....to wishing that this week was just over! As I drove to work in the never ending traffic...the thought entered my mind that life would just be easier if I would land and not flutter...//I am not sure as to why this thought crossed my mind but it did. It was in this moment I knew that I needed take the afternoon and reflect on life....// I don't ever just give myself an afternoon to ponder my life....because typically I am to caught up in helping other people solve their problems...but today was different-

This afternoon it was me, myself and I- and clearly I didn't know what to do...where to go...or even what I wanted to see. But as the afternoon went on...the thought repeatedly kept coming into my mind: stop the flutter and land....so I did just that...and escaped away on my adventure for the day....I want go into where I went, what I did, or what I saw....as for that is not the point...the point is what I learned...//

Today I learned that I need land....and that God never gives a person a second chance at life, unless He has a greater purpose planned. I have known this for years...but in the quiet and still reflection of my own heart...this was revealed again in a very true and genuine way today-

I get so caught up in the flutter all around that I forget to land and look at the things that are right in the palm of my hand...//Sometimes taking on a new perspective is what I have to do to survive...but not today...it's about living out the perspective that I see...and how this will allow me to thrive...//

In this life it's about stopping the flutter and to simply land....and knowing that when I land I am the exact same person that I am when I flutter-


To those who are reading...if you have even read this far...It is my hope...that you too will find peace when you land...and joy when you flutter...//

grander tomorrow

There is a calmness when one can listen and follow:

Be still...and know that I am God-

This verse though short and simple...clearly gives a notion that all will work out and all will be at peace...

Today...was the last day of one the hardest years ever! Though a new adventure is mapped out...and is taking one to a busier locale...and will bring about it's own hardship...it's nice to feel prepared...more prepared than maybe a year ago...and knowing that all that needs to be done...is to show that there is trust in a greater purpose.

Though this year has been up hill battle...and one clearly that may have been lost... one never gave in...and one never gave up...// This year was one of solitude and taught one the beauty to hope. In the moments that words couldn't be spoken...and when all seemed shattered...and confusion veiled every answer...peace flung through the open spaces and allowed one to climb on. When mountains were prayed over...they were removed...( literally)

One doesn't give up hope for a greater purpose and a designed plan...one follows that hope...and trusts that there will be a grander tomorrow where the sun will shine on a new day!