Breathe

The world uncovers my soul , allowing me to question who I am, and what place I hold in this life. More often, than not, I relinquish myself to the notion that God created me for a greater purpose than I can possibly see. He carries me through all the trials and tribulations that I encounter.

Truth be known...that I am a miracle on this earth. I should have never lived through the first nine years of my life, but by the grace and mercy of our loving God he gave me every breath to breathe...literally.

Many know my story, but I thought I would share it again. When I entered this world I was grayish/blue in color. The doctors and nurses were at my side and ran many tests on me to figure out what the actual problem was. At the time I was rushed to another hospital to run more tests . Finally, doctors concluded that I wasn't born with a pulmonary valve. This is the valve that pumps the blood to the rest of the body. Instead I had a hole in my heart that did the work for this missing valve. I walked nine years on this earth until I had a major open heart surgery. My family and the doctors had faith that I would survive until an adult valve could be placed within my heart. This was a huge decision and one that clearly shows the miraculous gift of life. I don't think that I should be here...and each day I face truly is a gift from above.

I have physical scar from the surgery that stays with me everyday. When I look at this scar...I see God's provision and care written all over my life. The very breath of life that He gives...I breathed.

The deeper blessing in life is just simply allowing Him to breathe for us, when we can't breathe for ourselves.