Enduring Fear

There comes a time in life that one has to face a giant or a fear. Sometimes we have to lay down every bit of our pride and just simply stand and say who we are. It takes gumption to release yourself to the lights of the unknown and to be at peace with the fact of knowing one did the right thing. For me, doing the right thing is always perplexing. I tend to be skeptical of life and love. Ironically, I don't really have reason to feel this way. I was raised in a very loving home and given answers to life's questions in the simplest forms. When did life become so complicated, leaving me with many questions that surround me today?

I remember my freshman year of school. I entered a Unviersity that I thought would carry me through for four years. I would walk that stage and have a degree with vocal performance as my major. That was clearly not the road that I was supposed to take. For there was a different path for me. A path that if I knew now what I didn't know then...wouldn't have been traveled. However, with God's strength, faith, and hope I muddled my way through and accepted the fact that He had different plans than I did.

Thoughts ran through my head...of would I ever get it right? See the light at the end of the tunnel and know that I survived because of His unshakable love for me. Through the hardship and fire He spoke gently to me...carrying me through. Giving me strength to walk the path that was presented to me.

Many dangers and fears came with this road, causing me to hesitate and question truth's that I believed. I found myself on the waves of rushing tides that wanted to pull me under. I fought a battle that Satan clearly wanted me to fail. However, when you face the giant in this world that enables every inch of your being to cling to the Father, you somehow feel love through the rain. When the sky lurks a cool ,misty, gray feeling and the sun appears in light of your battle...it is then you know you have obeyed.