Lemonade

In the words of a good friend... "Get it together, and stop sipping on your lemonade." This is a quote that she said to me my second semester of my Junior year. I remember, where I was standing on the campus when she stated this to me so emphatically. Her intensity in that moment has never left me. The consequences of not pursuing action to her implied notions still remain in my heart today.

Since time has passed, I try to live out this quote with new heights on the horizon. I have tried to take these words and write them on my heart for another reason, other than the moment she was implying me to grasp. Admist life, there will be struggle, there will be battles left unconquered, with a victory of untold answers. Out of the muck and mire, one will spring forth with great hope of what is to come; and know that one has it together and can still sip on lemonade.

The Battle

There is a battle in my head that never ends,
And sends me into an oblivion.

There is a battle in my heart,
That I am not sure how to start.

There is a battle in my mind.
Why is it such a crime?

There is a battle in my soul,
With truth's left untold.

There is a battle that I can't escape,
That causes me to hesitate.

There is a battle that I need to face.
How can I run such race?

There is battle with time to subside,
Just give me the cue to turn the tide.

There is hope admidst the battle,
That let's the beauty of life unravel.

Sharpening Iron

In the past couple of days I have been contemplating how iron sharpening iron affects us in our everyday lives. Several years ago, I had a conversation about this with a close friend. We always encouraged the other to have an Iron sharpening Iron relationship with those that God put in our path. One of the things that we discussed in this conversation was that Iron Sharpening Iron...is represented in Marriage. I remember our many discussions on this thought and verse, however, last night it really hit me...Iron sharpens Iron. If we are focused on those we love and those that are presented to us among the paths that we walk, we are in some way sharpening ourselves...that is allowing us to give so much more back to those whom we love.

The last few years of my life...have been living out Iron Sharpening Iron. Maybe I walked everything to be apart of the iron sharpening iron process. Who really knows, but I do know that because someone lived their life this way...it gave me sharper iron to keep going.

Thank you my friend...Oh how I still miss you and how the memories never leave me, nor the wisdom that you instilled in me to live out. You were and still are a treasure from the Lord. Thank you for giving me Iron to sharpen Iron!

Turn the Page

The other day this song started playing and it drew me back to certain moments in time. Funny how the song didn't pertain to anything that was happening in that moment, yet reminded me of the truth of a situation several years ago. Oh how funny it is...how we grow and mature and yet music can speak to apart of the soul that hasn't yet healed.


Turn the Page
Chantal Kreviazuk:

I'm out here on my own
Please pick up the phone
I'm hiding from the morning
Inside the dead of night
You left without a warning
You left me here behind
And I'm deep inside my soul
But I can't find my way back home
I'm hiding from the moment
That's never far behind
Hiding from the moment
That makes everything alright

I run, run away from
But can't turn the page
I knew it all along
You never try to change
I run, run away from
But can't turn the page
I knew it all along
You never try to change

Now I'm floating endlessly
Unpacking all my dreams
Funny how we hurry
To hold the hands of time
Funny how we worry
We cant control this life.

I run, run away from
But can't turn the page
I knew it all along
You never try to change
I run, run away from
But can't turn the page
I knew it all along
You never try to change.

Oh the Life

So often in life, I don't do what I desire. I find myself not grasping opportunities that I possibly should have, that leave me questioning the reasons for living through the circumstances. In the last few years, life has brought me some hardship that has been remembered by: regret, loss, pain, and frustration. Admidst all of the hardship: it left me seeking for Contentment and Peace in this life. Wanting to live with Passion and know that there is a greater purpose for all that I face.

In the course of growing up, I have had many stages of happiness and love for life...but truthfully in recent years I have found myself perplexed with tradgedy beyond my comprehension. At times my hope failed and faith wasn't a question of my heart. I sometimes found myself in an utter oblivion of hopelessness. It was in those moments that I knew the struggles were worth living through. To overcome...to embrace the struggles as apart of life and find that meaning was bound to surrender and that I would gain such empowerment for walking the dark and trecherous road.

College (all 5 years) taught me how to embrace this life. The moments for today. Though it has been a hard road, and one that could have been a lot less traveled, I know that I have gained some sort of empowerment through each year that brought such enduring hardships. Going to two schools, led me through an array of different colors on my palet. It forced me to gain sense of these moments and mature through the trudges. The first two definitely empowered me to walk the last three years and gave me hope to endure. The last three years shaped much of who I am today.

Contentment and Peace were something that were vastly searched for in each experience. I kept thinking that if I have contentment and peace through the fire, that one day I would have contentment and peace through the happiness. I don't know why God chose me to walk such an enduring road...but He did. Through those times of struggles my hope in God had to surrender, and obedience was key. I know that one day I will have contentment and peace through happiness in this life...and I find hope through knowing that He will see me through.

This poem by Charlotte Bronte has touched my soul in recent years...My prayer is that it touches yours as well.

Charlotte Bronte:

LIFE, believe, is not a dream
So dark as sages say;
Oft a little morning rain
Foretells a pleasant day.
Sometimes there are clouds of gloom,
But these are transient all;
If the shower will make the roses bloom,
O why lament its fall ?

Rapidly, merrily,
Life's sunny hours flit by,
Gratefully, cheerily,
Enjoy them as they fly !

What though Death at times steps in
And calls our Best away ?
What though sorrow seems to win,
O'er hope, a heavy sway ?
Yet hope again elastic springs,
Unconquered, though she fell;
Still buoyant are her golden wings,
Still strong to bear us well.
Manfully, fearlessly,
The day of trial bear,
For gloriously, victoriously,
Can courage quell despair !

Silence of the Soul

Silence is something that I have been doing a little bit of research on lately. Why is it that we tend to silence our souls in moments that we should be letting our souls do the talking? For me, I know that I have been in many situations where I should have grasped a moment and not allowed my silence to abandon my soul. I believe that at one time or another we have all felt in our hearts that we were to embrace a specific purposeful moment, yet so often we may have silenced ourselves for reasons unknown. I have found myself contemplating the true reason for silence in specific situations that have arised in my life recently. There are moments that I know my soul wanted to speak up and testify the truth...but at other times I felt as if silence had to see me through the circumstance. I don't know why the soul had to be silenced the way that it was, but I do know that the stillness and tranquility that my soul found through the silence was the depth and meaning behind the hidden treasure. Along life's paths we all find moments of where we must silence the soul from speaking to gain a better understanding of what is being played out. It is there within those moments that the soul finds true happiness and eventually allows the silence to release for the soul to speak.


I don't know what each of you are facing currently in your life...but I believe that if silence is keeping you from following your heart, you should allow the soul speak the truth. No matter what situation one faces the soul knows the truth.


This quote that I found through my research inspired this blog...I hope that it touches your heart in a profound way...and allows you to figure out what silences your soul. Be blessed my dear friends!!!


SILENCE..... " Stillness is the tranquility of the inner life, the quiet at the depths of it's hidden treasure. It is a collected total prescence, a being there, receptive, alert, ready...It is when the soul abandons the restlessness of purposeful activity." ~Eugene Hemrick~