sought after

....sometimes watching people get it wrong....is a way of showing you how to get it right....// There are dreams in life that once in a lifetime come true...there are also dreams that come true everyday...and then there ones that never come true. Lately life has brought the latter...and having to embrace the thought that the dream won't come true. Maybe it's the melancholy thoughts that shadow the true feelings of believing in the dream...and causes one to believe that the dream won't come true....//


There is a dream...for each of us...something that can't fully be grasped on it's own...but must be sought after....//

Isaiah 62:12: "...and you will be called sought after..."

holiday joy

It's that time of year...when the stockings are hung by the chimney with care...in hopes that Saint Nick will be soon be there...// The shimmering lights adorn the tree and smiles and laughter fill the room...and a sense of magic has never been more clear. It's the holiday joy that we all embrace and sends a sparkle to our face...// It's the magic...that the most wonderful time of the year is being celebrated and the bright star is guiding the way....// The hustle and bustle is ever present where ever one goes... and sounds of Christmas fill the air...// That itself is the beauty of this Holiday....however, the miracle of love surrounds this season...and makes it whole...and that's the greatest story ever told...// Not only is magic apart of this holiday joy...but that love is found in the magic of His story....// So as one hopes for Saint Nick to fill those stockings with joy....know that the magic of this holiday... is a blessing from the one with a greater story....//

can they pass

There's so much one could say and question. There's truths untold....and memories that were never discussed. There's a lack of clarity when all seems lost...and when things occur to take one off their course. Don't they see...do they get it....do they care??

There are things in life that purposely happen to test our faith, determine our steps, and strengthen our character....but do we pass?? The real question is ....can they pass??


There was a time in life when a person could absolutely pass a test and follow the course and keep their eye on the star. The older one gets the more one questions can they pass?? Can they pass the test of faithfulness, courage, determination, and solidarity- Can they pass the test to trust and gain hope through building their own character-


This journey is about trust...and how in the end it's all about what one trusts- Trusting that the person absolutely can pass...but even more trusting the Lord that the character of another will shine forth.

So life is perilous and can bring confusion and cause one to question something else...that clearly is wrong....and take them completely in another direction....or....one can accept who they are, what they have become and how they can add trust in another's life.


It's easier said than done...to trust...but that's what life is built upon...and it is ultimately one of the hardest things to live out- Can they pass??

30

3o... is just number right?! To most it is....but in eleven days it will be milestone for my life here on this earth....// There are moments in the past 30 years that I am not proud of and moments that have brought genuine love to my soul. There have been lessons learned, spiritual growth and wisdom embraced. In the last 30 years...when I look back over this life...it's been about fighting...striving to get ahead... and when people said I couldn't do something...proving to them that I could.

As 30 approaches...I look over the last 29 years with much gratitude in my heart for the people who have been within my life...encouraging me when things got tough....giving me spiritual wisdom...to expand and broaden my faith...to shape the foundation for my future.

I have thought in recent years...that I should be at some other point in my life...but it has taken me 30 years to realize...it's not about where we are...it's where we're going...that truly matters. It's about believing in yourself, when no one else does...and knowing that at the end of day...you are not alone...but simply being carried by the Master's hand. This is a journey...one that I hope will give me another 30 years to embrace....and hope for better tomorrows. It's almost liberating...to think of what you've learned...and how you can move forward...to a new beginning. So here's to the next 30 years...may hope shine with each new day....just like it has in the past...may joy radiate within...and extend love to those who enter my path. Maybe the fairytale of love will find my soul and the white horse will appear...and perhaps with each enchanting moment...my life will continue to shine...//

brighter than sunshine

Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine

...and it's brighter than sunshine...

~Aqualung

castles in the air

Do not worry if you built your castles in the air. They are where they should be. Now put the foundations under them.
~ Henry David Thoreau

Most of the time people think that life is built upon foundations of truth...and this isn't wrong....foundations are established at the beginning stages of life....however the lofty side of me believes that foundations aren't the answer to everything...and that building castles in the air... are in reality the dreams in which form our foundations.

Most of our castles are shaped from something that we believe in...not something that we have achieved by forming a foundation. A foundation has to be formed from something, whether that be a dream, a hope, or a desire...the belief in the heart that something great can be achieved. That's when we start to build the foundation...and typically foundations are discovered from the castle that isn't being suspended to the ground by a foundation. That foundation has to be formed to reach one to their castle.

It may take a lifetime to form a foundation to reach the perfect castle floating in the air...but it's where it should be...and it's what we do... how we believe and have faith that form the foundation for us to reach our castle.

half of the heart

Often times people can mask their real feelings and at other times reveal truths about themselves that they didn't expect to share. It happens to the best of us- and in those moments we don't realize how honest we are being with not only ourselves but to those who are listening-

Typically people live with half of their heart...not wanting to share the core of who they are due to fear and what one might think. People live with either their hearts half closed or their hearts half open. So which are you?? A heart half closed is someone who can't quite open up and express their true emotions without blaming others. A heart half open is someone who opens up...but has trouble determining the course of action to take, due to past experiences and not understanding the concept of opening the heart fully. When the heart is half closed there has been pain afflicted on that person...and the tapestry of their heart has yet to heal. When the heart is half open healing may have taken place but the soul of the heart can't grasp the truth of what they feel. When the heart is wide open...the tapestry has healed...the soul can grasp truth...and the heart can beat freely...//

Past experiences whether they be tragedy spun or happy endings...can result to how one's heart is actually presented to another. It is ultimately fear...that keeps a person from opening up their whole heart and moving forward in life. It also keeps people from ever truly embracing another soul- To each person their own pattern is formed and how they present their heart affects the dynamics of all whom they embrace.

the brave pooh

“Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. ”

Christopher Robin to Pooh

Sometimes we never see the brave spirit within ourselves. Sometimes we never think that we can accomplish much. Sometimes we think we are weaker than what we truly are. In life there are going to be times where moving forward is hard and taking chances aren't easy...and in this moment...one may find themselves questioning if they can even carry the load.

The beauty in this moment...is not knowing if one can carry the load...or even if one can be brave...but knowing the character of the person is striving forth...not understanding and honestly trusting and having faith that something greater within oneself can accomplish a grander plan.

And Pooh believed these things because he had a Christopher Robin in his life-- We all need a person to spur us on within our journey...and help us believe that we can accomplish great and magical things in this life...//

flutter or land

Thoughts flutter rapidly through the mind....and when life happens there are two options: to either flutter or to land....this may not make any sense...and that is ok....but I hope that the reflection in what is written will cause one to stop the flutter...and to land...//

Today began as a normal day...get up, get ready...grab the coffee to go....to spill it while walking out the door...to walk to the car....to wishing that this week was just over! As I drove to work in the never ending traffic...the thought entered my mind that life would just be easier if I would land and not flutter...//I am not sure as to why this thought crossed my mind but it did. It was in this moment I knew that I needed take the afternoon and reflect on life....// I don't ever just give myself an afternoon to ponder my life....because typically I am to caught up in helping other people solve their problems...but today was different-

This afternoon it was me, myself and I- and clearly I didn't know what to do...where to go...or even what I wanted to see. But as the afternoon went on...the thought repeatedly kept coming into my mind: stop the flutter and land....so I did just that...and escaped away on my adventure for the day....I want go into where I went, what I did, or what I saw....as for that is not the point...the point is what I learned...//

Today I learned that I need land....and that God never gives a person a second chance at life, unless He has a greater purpose planned. I have known this for years...but in the quiet and still reflection of my own heart...this was revealed again in a very true and genuine way today-

I get so caught up in the flutter all around that I forget to land and look at the things that are right in the palm of my hand...//Sometimes taking on a new perspective is what I have to do to survive...but not today...it's about living out the perspective that I see...and how this will allow me to thrive...//

In this life it's about stopping the flutter and to simply land....and knowing that when I land I am the exact same person that I am when I flutter-


To those who are reading...if you have even read this far...It is my hope...that you too will find peace when you land...and joy when you flutter...//

grander tomorrow

There is a calmness when one can listen and follow:

Be still...and know that I am God-

This verse though short and simple...clearly gives a notion that all will work out and all will be at peace...

Today...was the last day of one the hardest years ever! Though a new adventure is mapped out...and is taking one to a busier locale...and will bring about it's own hardship...it's nice to feel prepared...more prepared than maybe a year ago...and knowing that all that needs to be done...is to show that there is trust in a greater purpose.

Though this year has been up hill battle...and one clearly that may have been lost... one never gave in...and one never gave up...// This year was one of solitude and taught one the beauty to hope. In the moments that words couldn't be spoken...and when all seemed shattered...and confusion veiled every answer...peace flung through the open spaces and allowed one to climb on. When mountains were prayed over...they were removed...( literally)

One doesn't give up hope for a greater purpose and a designed plan...one follows that hope...and trusts that there will be a grander tomorrow where the sun will shine on a new day!

It's OK...

Never settle for something...when the belief that something greater is ever so present. It's been along time a coming...but for once in this life...it's ok...it's ok...that things in life haven't turned out the way that maybe one had hoped. It's ok...that life has brought about some tragedy...and it's ok..that life spun one in circles. It's ok...that not every destination along this path was mapped out...or even where one wanted to travel. It's ok...that one didn't win ever battle...and it's truly ok...that even when the battle was lost...everything around crumbled. It's ok...that when one tried to pick up the pieces and fit them into the puzzle...that they didn't fit. It's ok...that life happened and created a story...a story which could have been totally written in some other way that was brilliant.

If one had settled and didn't hold on to the idea that something could be greater...the path would have been way easier...and never embraced with the right intentions. It would have survived...but would it have thrived?? Would it have embraced the lessons from tragedy?? Would it have spun circles of grace?? Would the destinations traveled been trudged with hope?? Would the battles won have been victories of humility?? When the battle was lost and everything fell, would one have given the broken and shattered pieces over to the ONE who could fit them into the puzzle?? And when life created a story...would one be able to say...to Him be the Glory...??


So it's ok...because the beauty of this life isn't about settling...but knowing that the best is yet to come...and holding onto the belief that something greater is ever so present.

brilliance of happiness

Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.
--Gandhi

The brilliance of happiness...isn't a feeling...it's an attitude...a choice that we make on a daily basis. Allowing what we think, to be embraced by what we say, and being reflected in what we do...//It is in those moments that that peace is found. There is a content spirit found in the soul of one who is genuinely happy. When what we think, what we say, and how we act...reflect one another...harmony is the tune to which we dance...which creates a bubbly happy feeling inside...// To know that one is satisfied and happy within themselves and what they represent as a person creates the brillance of happiness--

genuine heart

It's eclipsed by the slight transition of the heart wanting more...it's what is built when we want our way. When it's clearly time for life to take a new turn, and in our hearts we want to fight to keep it the same. It's when we become content with clearly setting everything to our own tune...and then slightly being forced to play a different melody. It's the harmony in this life that throws us slightly...and causes the abstract tune to caution our hearts. It's brilliant how each of us can build a wall, that is caused by a little word with a big meaning. Sometimes the heart is cautioned and perplexed by our own pride. Are we not supposed to be genuine creatures...you know the type where people can freely be themselves and not wonder about what another person might think. What if we were all genuine...there would be no walls to break through...there would be no lessons to learn through breaking our own pride. It's simply about taking a moment, stepping back and remembering what brought you to this moment, and knowing in your heart that the promise will be written. The walls need to weaken, they need crack...and allow the pure sound to hearken the melody. As the walls crack the crumbling sound will then create a harmony that will allow the genuine soul to shine. As the soul shines, and the wall breaks...pride then becomes the abstract tune of a genuine heart.

oh how He loves us

...and we are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
if His grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
and heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss,
and my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way…
that He loves us...

David Crowder Band

the journey

The journey is long and perilous and at often times makes absolutely no sense at all. It's perplexing really how life can take twists and turns and how the facets of the curves never seem to connect. The melancholic persona is kicking in...and one finds themselves trapped, entangled, and undefined. The journey was never promised to be easy...though there was the promise that the loving friend would see one through. Even that promise seems so cliche... and so daunting.

The journey is never ending and at often times makes complete sense. It's in those moments that hope can be embraced...and makes the intangible and perilous journey bearable. One can't comprehend what's going on, or where this is going, or even how the journey was even established. At times the journey could even seem meaningless...//

The journey must have reason, it must ring clarity, and it must shine hope. If one has learned anything on this journey....it's been that through the storm...the rainbow will appear...there will be a brighter day...where dreams and this magical journey of hope collide. It takes a little dabble of faith to embrace this moment...and trust that though the journey be chaotic and perplexing...it will bring forth a peace like never felt before.

So here's to where the journey leads now...in this moment...where all seems to be falling apart...and all one can do...is simply stand...and release the journey into the writer's hands...//

spring

Finally I can sense that the Spring is among us. I am so excited about this...and how the cheery blossoms will be blooming and all the other flowers will be sparking their blooms as well. Oh how this time year lightens my spirit and allows the music within my soul to sing. It's a time for embracing each new day, with a smile on my face. It's about looking for the flower that pokes out of the sidewalk crack to brighten my day. Oh it's spring...when flips flops can be adorned by oh so happy toes...with a fresh coat of fun! It's grand...Spring...it can only make one happy...when the days are longer and the spirits of each soul are lightened by the beauty that only Spring can unveil.

time is precious

In recent weeks I have learned how time can affect the dimension and outcome of so many things. Time is precious...and we don't waste it on just floating air. It's about taking time and making sure that each and everyday something new is being captured. Time allows us to learn, grow, mature, follow our hearts, and capture the essence of what life can bring. The most endearing thing about time...is that even in a split second it can change a life forever. It can change perception, and it can change a person's faith. A few years ago....time was a portion of focus, but then life happened, things failed, moments loss passed by, to leave one wondering how time slipped away. Time and what one does with that time creates life. Time can make a brilliant story if a person is willing to give the writer the time to write.

It's a new year...with a new focus...and it's time to embrace the life that time has created. To let time capture the soul and shine moment's of peace. To follow the heart of a dream...and let the writer use time as its muse which creates an unraveling beauty called life.

The story may not have the dimension or outcome that one had hoped for...but time allows that to even be perfection. The writer has a grander plan and can use time to capture so much more light, than the human eye can see. Taking time through the storm, to embrace the light of each new day...and knowing that the awe inspiring, life altering, moment's in life are grand...and really are about grasping the seconds that may not seem to be brilliant.