fade into white

Confused, dazed, slightly perplexed, and feeling all melancholy like. Thinking my thoughts are swarming in my head and hoping that they land in a perfect coherent arrangement. I want the daisies to make the new day shine. I want the soul to inspire my heart to believe. I want the sparkle to light up the dark sky. I want the simple nature of life to find me at peace and not in a chaotic state. I want the bubbles to float all the way up to the sky and not go POP. I want to create the life that I am meant to live. I don't want a give up on the dream that I am living this life for a greater purpose...and it takes many of faults to get one to where they really want to be. I want the new day to be grand. I want the light to be golden, and the shades of gray... fade into white. I want to see beauty like never before...and to embrace the the hope of the star. It's the holiday cheer and the magic in the air that makes this season bright.

sharing peace

It's been rough day...one that could be forgotten in my book...but I also have to embrace the situation and try to make it better. I miss when things were simple...when life seemed like a bubble that floated to a perfect tune. Sometimes, I go in trance and drive in the jeep thinking about how I wish I was on island...with a perfect beach...and could go for a boat ride everyday. Other days I wish my jeep could take me to Paris...and I could escape to a cafe, and drink a fresh french pressed coffee. It would be bliss. Then there are the moments where I wish that I could sit in my adirondack chair on a balcony by the shore and read, with the sound of the waves crashing on the shore. That would be grand. So I asked myself today....where would like my jeep to take me. My answer was somewhere not here...just a moment to escape to be by myself and see the light of the day from another perspective. Immediately in my mind and heart, I knew I was wanting to not embrace the trials of the day, and trust that they would turn out ok. It's gotten harder the last few years to just be content...at peace...with all that life encompasses. My melancholy personality kicks in often leaving me questioning and praying for contentedness. When it is I, that has the peace locked in my soul...and is not releasing it into my heart. I wonder when a real vacation will come...you know the type that you don't have to plan in your head, and the one that you can really live. I am learning everyday, how to accept the pressures of this life...and look at them as blessings. It is so hard to think that amidst the trials, lies blessing, hope, healing, and peace. If I have learned anything on this journey, and through the desserts of my life...it has been that in life we may have trouble, and yes it make strike us from every side and leave every chord broken. There is something greater, that comes along and picks up...and allows us to see that the simple can be found through the chaos. It's in the blessing of a new day. It's the hope that life will get better,that dreams will be granted, and promises will be fulfilled. There is healing in the storm, and surrounds it's light in the dark. Healing allows the spirit to feel again, for the hope to be restored. Lastly, there is peace... and with peace comes the satisfaction that life can be embraced fully. It's been a journey...and marked by many storms...there have been rainbows, and dark clouds...and days where the sun has shown. However, everyday that is embraced is about sharing the joy of that peace so that others may find hope, healing, and the blessing of this life. So whether that is living on the ocean shore with a simple life, or living in the mountains with the trials of the chaotic life, the purpose is the same...that never changes... sharing peace -

Holiday Wish

Take a deep....now breathe in and breathe out. Life can be a hard journey. It can be simple, and we can tend to make life complicated. It's all in the perspective of how we live...everyday. I am learning that the more we breathe in the less we breathe out. We should be breathing in, and breathing out a lot more. The holiday season is among us, and most of us are hustling and bustling to get the perfect gift, and not taking in the true meaning and sights that surround us. Tis the season to be jolly...and tis the season is to be happy. Though times are tough for many...lets take a moment to breathe in and breathe out the hope that encompasses our everyday life. Let's make a wish....not just the ordinary wish, the wish that only Jesus can grant us. The wish that is so instilled within our souls that only He can bestow. It's there and though we can't imagine how He would ever bring that wish to us, or allow the beauty to ignite that wish....still wish and know that there is a greater hope to which the holiday wish can be granted. So take a deep breathe...now breath in and breathe out....make your holiday wish....and trust that no matter what goes down this holiday season, that the joy, and the happiness of the sparkling lights will lift your spirits, that perfect gifts will be given, and even more importantly....the soul will be touched by the holiday wish being granted.

Something New

Let us be grateful to people who make us happy; they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom. - Marcel Proust

Sometimes it is simple to say it's time for something new....and at other times it is really hard. It's hard of letting go of the familiar to embrace the thought of something new. Perhaps the hard part in letting go...isn't the thought that something new want come your way....but the simple fact that whatever does happen....won't be good enough, or sufficient enough to over ride what your letting go.

It's time...to let go...to start a new journey...to let what taught me in the past....feed me hope in the present....and give me light for my future.

It's not that we should forget, but it's about speaking the breath of life into the moments that I live....being a vessel who is willing to do what it takes to capture the newness of life on a daily basis.

So yes in this moment, it's hard to simply let go and trust that all with work out...but that's what faith and hope are all about. To let go....simply embrace the new.... and hope and pray that what comes one's way....will be nothing less than what the heart and soul could dream.

In this moment....it's something new...it's the adventure of peace...that will forever be etched on the heart....and for that I am ever grateful.

Shine Like Stars

Therefore my dear friends, as you have always obeyed- not only in my presence but now much more in my absence - continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose. Do everything without arguing and complaining so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe; as you hold out he word of life-in order that I may boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor for nothing.

Philippians 2: 12-16

Faith + Hope = Trust

Faith is the belief that God is ; hope is believing that God will do what he has promised; and trust is living with absolute confidence in the Father's acceptance and unconditional love; and totally abandoning yourself to whatever He asks of you to do; even when it doesn't make sense.

Faith + Hope = Trust

One must have faith in the Lord, hope that he will complete what he started, and trust with an absolute certainty that through His love one will accomplish the ultimate purpose that He has planned.

He is gonna do great things through the hearts that are open to trusting in His way, and living out hope, by faithfully believing that He is, who He says He is.

Postive Perception

The beauty in this life sometimes is hidden in our greatest leap of faith. The road may continue to be long and it may continue to bring hardship, but when the perception is changed, there is hope amidst the storm. The beauty isn't found when all is content and at peace...beauty is found when walking through the rough terrain, and having the faith that peace will be found. Sad but true, it has taken me a few years to reach this point in my life...and to truly grasp that walking through the hardship and having a positive perception can help lighten the burden of this life. It is through taking a daily leap of faith, that allows the beauty in this life to be captured, the peace to be sustained, and the grace to be given.