learning lessons...//

In the last several weeks, life has caused me to re-focus my direction...and think upon the things that really matter to me...// Where do I want to be in five years...and what are the steps that I need to take to get me there...// It's much easier said than done...//

I had an enlightening conversation with a good friend last week, that caused me to reflect upon past mistakes...and learning lessons in this messy life. I am grateful for the last ten years of my life...and know that I wouldn't be who I am...without facing each mountain that I climbed. During those years, I learned that grace was the foundation of my faith...and that without I am lost. The lessons that I learned...I am still learning...and I will continue to have to embrace the active participation of learning those lessons for my life to reflect nearly anything of what I desire it to look like. The point is...that yes...life is one messy road...and in order for us to get anywhere...we have to MOVE...// Take steps in the direction that we feel led to go...and trust...that we wont fail...//

There's a point in life...where you have an audience watching...and they aren't watching for you to perform some grand dive as if you are performing at the Olympics...they are watching you because they care...// This was a quote that was given to me this week...and in that moment...I had know idea that this quote would cause me...to reflect back on lessons learned...and realize that without learning lessons...there wouldn't be an audience to see or even experience HIS GLORY in my life...//

I have never felt more confident that I am standing on solid ground as I do in this moment of today...// To relinquish my request into the author's hand...and trust that HIS answer reflects glory and will shine forth His love and grace that has caused learning lessons to not only be apart of the journey...but to be the reason for the journey...so that the path of further generations will be set before them to reflect much joy, grace, and love for HIS glory...//

veiled in white...//

...and I'll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom...I'm green as the ring on my little cold finger...I've never known the lovin' of a man...but it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand...there's a boy here in town says he'll love me forever...who would have thought forever could be severed by...the sharp knife of a short life...well, I've had just enough time...//
--The Band Perry

I had a thought...that formed into dream...that cultivated into a reality...// My thought was....what would it be like to enter his kingdom...veiled in white...and knowing that I was a beautiful angel placed on this earth to serve...// My dream...was nothing more than to be held in the arms of my Savior...// In the dark...I shared my thought...that are days are numbered on this earth...and that while we are here...we are to serve, love, learn, laugh and shine.

Love found my soul...and gave me the promise...symbolized by the ring that adorned my cold finger...// It was a magical moment where the glory of the His Love was given to me on this earth...// However, in that moment when I cried the word YES...I had know idea...that I would be taken away...from this earth...and that my days would end. So there I stood...in my white dress...not to walk an isle...but to worship My Savior...//

My dream...to adorn His Kingdom was now my reality....and so there I saw....the beauty of His Face....the scars that took my shame....and I knelt and cried at His Feet....and praised Him for His Love...//

My story was to touch lives and save souls...my passion was to serve, love, learn, laugh and shine.

*This was inspired by a true story and yes a dream...He is faithful*

just be

...Let go of your heart...let go of your head...and feel it now...-- David Gray

Sometimes we have to let go of our hearts, the words in our head....and just simply be...// Be in the moment...and allow ourselves to soak up the feelings that we feel. Those true feelings are revealed in the quietness of being...// Tis true it might seem complicated but the truth is...it's quite simple...just be...and the rest will tell the story....//

* carried *

*...when I call out your name...something inside awakes in my soul...how quickly I forget I'm yours..I've been carried by you...ALL my life...* hope now ~ Addison Road

One of the treasured beauties in this life is knowing that one has been carried...

Life presents stories that capture the essence of who someone is and who they can become. These stories are built upon paths that never should have been walked...however...when one looks back over the course of their life...they don't see their footprints...// It's in that moment that they capture the truth...and treasure the thought that they were being carried-

Tis true...a moment where one stands at a fork in the road...and realizes...they can go left or they can go right...one decision is sacred and the other is a good thing...neither are wrong decisions...but it's what's best...He carried one to this very moment...to bring truth and light for one to determine will they make the sacrifice-- and trust to be carried.

my revolution...//

So I really have never been one to set a New Years resolution....however this year I have created alot of random thoughts into a something I like call...my revolution...//

As 2011 begins....I have looked back over 2010 as being a year of transition, preparation, obedience, and trust. I also see where over the year...I should have spoken out more and been more open with where life was leading me...after all it was I wanted...just coming to me in different way that I had anticipated. In being prepared...I have learned that a person should never hold back their true feelings no matter what risks it involves...so no more questioning, wondering or even analyzing what I did or didn't say in conversations....this is where I have taken the random thought of SPEAK NOW...or forever hold my peace. Without risk...one will never get anywhere...and in all situations in life we have to be willing to speak now and risk even our words into the air...and trust that they are taken with the right intent. Another random thought that was compiled was appreciating the delicacy of each moment. Every moment is captured by truth...and reveals something new. I learned this past year...to appreciate the delicacy of each moment...and to remember there is something delicate in each one of us...that shines. The last random thought that I have processed this year...is to live with purpose...never underestimating myself or my thoughts....or even my dreams. In order to accomplish the dreams of my heart....I have to live with purpose...take risks....speak now....and appreciate the delicacy that shines in each of us.

This is my revolution...so here's to 2011...the joy that will spring forth...when I live with purpose...appreciate the delicacy that shines....and taking risks to speak now...//

sought after

....sometimes watching people get it wrong....is a way of showing you how to get it right....// There are dreams in life that once in a lifetime come true...there are also dreams that come true everyday...and then there ones that never come true. Lately life has brought the latter...and having to embrace the thought that the dream won't come true. Maybe it's the melancholy thoughts that shadow the true feelings of believing in the dream...and causes one to believe that the dream won't come true....//


There is a dream...for each of us...something that can't fully be grasped on it's own...but must be sought after....//

Isaiah 62:12: "...and you will be called sought after..."

holiday joy

It's that time of year...when the stockings are hung by the chimney with care...in hopes that Saint Nick will be soon be there...// The shimmering lights adorn the tree and smiles and laughter fill the room...and a sense of magic has never been more clear. It's the holiday joy that we all embrace and sends a sparkle to our face...// It's the magic...that the most wonderful time of the year is being celebrated and the bright star is guiding the way....// The hustle and bustle is ever present where ever one goes... and sounds of Christmas fill the air...// That itself is the beauty of this Holiday....however, the miracle of love surrounds this season...and makes it whole...and that's the greatest story ever told...// Not only is magic apart of this holiday joy...but that love is found in the magic of His story....// So as one hopes for Saint Nick to fill those stockings with joy....know that the magic of this holiday... is a blessing from the one with a greater story....//